Is this real life?...

By the time my brain started working again, Taylor was back on the main stage singing "I Knew You Were Trouble" and I remember thinking how silly I must have just looked and that the current look on my face must have been priceless. My eyes were so wide and my mouth was wide open in complete shock. I kept saying out loud, "Is this real life?!?!!" And doing a double, triple... And quadruple take at the new red wrist band that said, "Club Red 9/13" on my left wrist and like lime green paper in my right, that I clung to for dear life.

Throughout "I knew you were trouble" and " all too well" dozens of people came up to hug, congratulate and to take pictures with me; while others came to ask what had just happened and if I was going to be okay. When Wonderstruck guy congratulated me I started freaking out even more. I thanked him over and over for everything; being so nice to me, answering all of my million questions  and for giving up his PIT PASS to sit next to me and encourage me. He kept saying, " I didn't do anything! That was all you!" 

I continued to bawl my eyes out...

Take a deep breath...

I stopped and thanked God for what he had just made happen. He knew the desires of my heart, He knew how much this mean to me and He made it happen. My God is so good to me! I recorded and took screenshots on my phone of the middle and end of "We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together" but I knew I needed to run to the restroom and freshen up. I could only imagine how horrid I must have looked!

I was crying so hard my. "13" on my right hand hadn't made it. I grabbed my Taylor Swift vinyl tote and darted for the stairs  I kept glancing back over my shoulder and stopping to watch the cast take their final bows. 

I knew I needed to take in every last detail; this was the last time I would see The Red Tour...